What's Next?

I just finished my 7th semester of college last Friday. Technically I should be graduating this spring but I transferred from a different 4-year university to CSUS after two year and I switched my major. I am now a Math major, crazy I know. Upper division math is really tough. My original plans were to become a Math Teacher at high school level, but there is a possibility I didn't pass one of my classes so my plans might change. I'm trying not to stress to much about it until I find out if I really pass the class or not. These are big plans though, I really have no idea what I want to be doing with the rest of my life. To be honest I really like the sound of a teaching job because I like the fact that you get summers and major holidays off. I want my #1 job to be a Mom, but that doesn't pay bills so teaching would do. I know I would enjoy teaching math because for 1. I really enjoy math and 2. I am a cheer coach for high school level and I like teaching that age group. But I guess I find myself wondering what is next for me if I decide not to teach. I'm not sure what other careers I would enjoy doing that involve Math degrees. I guess I can only take it one day at a time and see where life leads me.

Christmas is getting closer and I still haven't finished all of my shopping. Money is pretty tight in my family this year so we are doing white elephant with the whole family. It should be pretty fun, we have done this before and sometimes it can get kind of crazy! But I do enjoy being with my family no matter what we are doing. My parents surprised my sister, brother and I with a trip to Disneyland as our Christmas present. We are leaving the day after Christmas. I am a total Disney lover:) I love everything about it, especially Disneyland. My boyfriend is also coming with us, which I am really happy about. He gets along perfectly with my family which makes it easy. He was my brother's football coach last year (which is how we met!). He also coaches with my Dad so I didn't have to worry about him meeting my parents when we first started dating. But anyway, Disneyland at Christmas time is super fun but also super crowded! I can't wait:)

Trusting Again...

So as I said in my last post, I have a boyfriend of a little over a year. He is wonderful. We connected so much when we first met and we get along very well. He has a lot of female friends. This drives me absolutely crazy. And it's not in the jealous "I don't want my boyfriend to talk to anyone but me!" way, it's because I have been cheated on numerous times. After someone you thought you could trust betrays you like that, its hard to let people in again. My boyfriend now is NOTHING like my ex, but my mind likes to think about all the what-ifs, and what makes this guy different from any of the others. I have talked to him on many occasions, but I still can't help but feel uncomfortable with him talking to other girls. Who says they aren't flirting or hiding things behind my back? I know I have to trust him but my past makes it hard. Anyone else struggle with their past and just wish it would go away? I always seem to find myself looking at his friends on facebook, just wondering what they look like. I know this is something I should NOT do. But stupid facebook makes it so easy!

On another note, my puppy came home last night from the Vet. I have a Tri-Color Shiba Inu. If you have never heard of this breed you should look them up, they are the cutest! Ill attach a picture soon! She was spayed yesterday and had a tooth pulled! My poor baby girl was a little loopy last night and slept all snuggled up next to me:) Animals really do bring so much joy into our lives, I dont know what I'd do with out her!

I'm going over to my aunt's house today to bake some cookies for Christmas. It's a tradition in our family to do this every year and I really enjoy it! Much more than going out and Christmas shopping:) Is everyone surviving the crazy shopping season?

Beginning of a New Day:)

This is my first post as a blogger and I'm pretty excited. I have never shared my thoughts like this so it should be interesting. I am one of those people who can't ever stop thinking. It drives me insane most of the time and I'm hoping this will help me to turn my thoughts into more positive ones. You don't know much about me but I'm sure as time goes on I will reveal more about me, and I hope to find some people who can understand the way my mind works and relate. I also hope that I can find a way for me to understand the way my mind works!

I'll start my introduction by telling you that I am a college student, in my early twenties. I have a part time job and I am also a cheer coach. I have a boyfriend and we have been dating for just a little over a year. I have been hurt a lot in my past; not only by ex-boyfriends but also by friends. Therefore, my little brother is my best friend and is someone I can always count on.

That's all for now:) more to come later!

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